Change

Change is a Good Thing... this is a piece of advice that many people have given me in the last month, and I am seeing changes all around me on a daily basis. Some of the changes are good, some bad, and some i just really don't want to see. One good change is that I am becoming more independent...I live on my own 95% of the time now...I don't have anybody telling me what's best for me and I have to make those decisions by myself. This has been really good for me...I am getting to the point where I don't ask my mom, brother, or friends what I should do. On the other hand, this can also be a bad thing because I have found myself not turning to God with some major issues or worries that I am having. That is the bad change. I haven't been spending as much time as wanted or needed with God. I worry all the time about classes or my social life, and I don't focus on my spiritual life. I sin on a daily basis but I don't really do anything to change my ways. Now the changes I don't want to see are occurring back home where my good friends are...Everybody is moving on...without me... Now that sounds so selfish but it's hard to go back and see that the world doesn't stop because I came back. SUPER SELFISH right? I hate that about my personality. Ther are awesome things that I love about going home though. Like spending the day with my mommy, or getting to see some good high school football, and one of my most favorites is the fresh air!!! I love not breathing in polution.... I love my home and the scenery and the slowed down pace of a little city!! One thing that hasn't changed at all is my feelings for the people back home...I can try to get over certain people but that will not happen anytime soon...now i spent 3 weeks in b'ham without going home this last time and that helped me get over some things (or i thought those 3 weeks did), but boy was I wrong...those feelings came back real quick which I was super excited about lol...anyways..I am changing in good and bad ways and I am staying the same too...There's no telling what will happen next..this year is going by so fast