Dirty Laundry

Well at this very moment i am doing laundry in the blazer hall laundry mat and i was just sittin here thinking about today and this past weekend and all that's been goin on in my life when i realized that this whole past week i didn't do anything for the kingdom. Over half of my time was spent worrying about a boy who doesn't even want to date me, and the other half was worryin about my classes and all that goes along with that. If I keep goin on with my life the way i am i am never goin to grow in my spiritual life. The big red flag to this break through occurred when i went to church this morning with my brother. It was the first time since i had been back to b'ham that i had actually taken the time to even try to evaluate my spiritual life. My life needs to be centered about God and then the rest will fall into place...and i have got to learn to be content with that whole heartedly

I'm Here

Well...i'm at college...i got to see larry today and it was tons of fun to get to see him and all of his friends...i hope to see them again soon..i pray God will send me friends like his...They are amazing...i hope to get involved in a church soon too!! who knows when it will happen

College vs Home

Okay so the past week i have experienced tons of new things and these things have got me thinkin about life here and life at home. I love college. The classes are gonna be tough but i am really excited bcause i am going to be challenged with hard tasks in order to reach my goal of becoming a nurse. Then I think about home and i know things won't be the same when I go bakc, but there are certain people who are moving on without me that really in my heart i don't want to move on. I guess I had high hopes that they would wait for me, but who was I kidding. These people don't want to wait on me, but I don't want to move on without them. I want to focus on school, but when certain people leave little hints that they are moving on without me it hurts. Now, I'm really bad at over-reacting so that may all that these feelings are, and I really hope that's all it is!! I pray that this is just me over reacting!!

School

Well i leave for the great city of Birmingham in two days and i am super super super excited!!I feel like i have grown more in the last five days than i have all summer...it's been amazing. I think now that i am at the end of this journey in fort payne i have started to remember little things i have learned and experienced here.

I look back and I first think about all of my crazy middle school moments and I don't ever ever ever want to go back...I was a super brat and I was really annoying...Then i remember how i transitioned from middle school to high school and i am so thankful for my church family and my immedeate family for their support. Finally i think about high school and all of the amazing times i had and there are too many to count!! I loved every part of football season and the pep rallies and the basketball games and all of the crazy times in between!! I loved every minute of it.

I've met so many amazing people in just the last five years that i wouldn't take back those years for anything!! I loved getting to meet some of my closer friends who are older but who support me and let me be myself!! And i am super excited about the people i meet at college and all the fun i am going to have there!! I can't wait!! Pray for me!!

I hope that i will always be a "first-rate version of myself"

Um...so i haven't been on here in a while because i haven't really had anything to say... i feel like i am just living my life but there isn't any purpose to it...i'm okay with that, but deep down it makes me really sad that i am just living this meaningless life... i need to get back on track..get my lazy butt up and do something...i can't wait for school to start!!